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Name: Chad
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Birthday: 3/1/1985
Gender: Male


Interests: cooking (a newly found ability), U2, Morley wah and other guitar-related accessories, purpose, protein, wisdom, good questions, loving life, Richard Simmons workouts, dancing to African music, scaring people, the occasional piano ballad, church life, MCO, figuring out how to lace a shoe with my toes, culture, worship, dancing, being real.
Expertise: not much.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical


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Sunday, September 16, 2007

Currently Listening
Ben-Hur - A Tale Of The Christ: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack (1959 Version)
By Miklos Rozsa
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Not that I'm rushing winter to make an early entrance, but I've loved this poem ever since reading it in high school:

The Skater of Ghost Lake
By William Rose Benet

Ghost Lake's a dark lake, a deep lake and cold:
Ice black as ebony, frostily scrolled;
Far in its shadows a faint sound whirs;
Steep stand the sentineled deep, dark firs.

A brisk sound, a swift sound, a ring-tinkle-ring;
Flit-flit,--a shadow with a stoop and a swing,
Flies from the shadow through the crackling cold.
Ghost Lake's a deep lake, a dark lake and old!

Leaning and leaning with a stride and a stride,
hands locked behind him, scarf blowing wide,
Jeremy Randall skates, skates late,
Star for a candle, moon for a mate.

Black is the clear glass now that he glides,
Crisp is the whisper of long lean strides,
Swift is his swaying--but pricked ears hark.
None comes to Ghost lake late after dark!

Cecily only--yes it is she!
Stealing to Ghost Lake, tree after tree,
Kneeling in snow by the still lake side,
Rising with feet winged, gleaming, to glide.

Dust of the ice swirls. Here is his hand.
Brilliant his eyes burn. Now, as was planned,
Arm across arm twined, laced to his side,
Out on the dark lake lightly they glide.

Dance of the dim moon, a rhythmical reel,
A swaying, a swift tune--skurr of the steel;
Moon for a candle, maid for a mate,
Jeremy Randall skates, skates late.

Black as if lacquered the wide lake lies;
Breath as a frost-fume, eyes seek eyes;
Souls are a sword edge tasting the cold.
Ghost Lake's a deep lake, a dark lake and old!

Far in the shadows hear faintly begin
Like a string pluck-plucked of a violin,
Muffled in mist on the lake's far bound,
Swifter and swifter, a low singing sound!

Far in the shadows and faint on the verge
Of blue cloudy moonlight, see it emerge,
Flit-flit,--a phantom, with a stoop and a swing . . .
Ah, it's a night bird burdened of wing!

Pressed close to Jeremy, laced to his side,
Cecily Culver, dizzy you glide.
Jeremy Randall sweepingly veers
Out on the dark ice far from the piers.

"Jeremy!" "Sweetheart?" "What do you fear?"
"Nothing my darling,--nothing is here!"
"Jeremy!" "Sweetheart?" "What do you flee?"
"Something--I know not; something I see!"

Swayed to a swift stride, brisker of pace,
Leaning and leaning, they race and they race;
Ever that whirring, that crisp sound thin
Like a string pluck-plucked of a violin;

Ever that swifter and low singing sound
Sweeping behind them, winding them round;
Gasp of their breath now that chill flakes fret;
Ice black as ebony--blacker--like jet!

Ice shooting fangs forth--sudden--like spears;
Crackling of lightning--a roar in their ears!
Shadowy, a phantom swerves off its prey . . .
No, it's a night bird flit-flits away!

Low-winging moth-owl, home to your sleep!
Ghost Lake's a still lake, a cold lake and deep.
Faint in its shadows a far sound whirs.
Black stand the ranks of its sentineled firs.


Sunday, June 10, 2007

Currently Listening
Lost & Found
By Griffin House
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Has it been this long?

   I have to laugh at how irregular my posts have been over the last year.  I chuckle because my "blog life" is actually a pretty good representation of the last year or two of my life.  Nothing about my life has been extremely reliable and I'm sure I've offended some with my inconsistency in maintaining relationships with others, serving in ministry, and growing spiritually.

   I spent several years of high school and one or two of college feeling quite good about my spirituality, my influence on others, and my relationships.  I don't feel so great about any of the three anymore.  I'm not entirely sure what's different, but I think it's more a change in my perception of myself than any personal changes.

   Life is weird when you realize that you have problems. 

   As a homeschooler, I grew up as a part of a very small world in which it was easy for me to shine... I didn't have a whole lot of competition, so I always perceived myself as a pretty special guy.  (I guess the correct answer is that I am a pretty special guy because God made me that way... but you get my drift).

   And now I'm a little (4.12 on a scale of 1-10) bewildered.   What do you do when you honestly can't say that you are (or have ever been) a good inflence on others? What happens when you fail to maintain your most valued relationships?  Where should you go when you feel more spiritual death than adventure? 

   That's what I'm feeling - that I don't own the world anymore.  Everything is out of my hands and the greatest amount of energy I can muster fails to change anything significant. Reality bites?

   I'm quite deflated but not depressed...  my sense is that I'm slowly finding my way out of an illusion which will certainly bring clarity not only to my relationship to the world but my walk with God. 

   I hope to post some thoughts in the near future regarding "Getting through your problems to finding God" by Larry Crabb.  An excellent read.


Saturday, April 14, 2007

Currently Reading
Practical View of the Prevailing Religious System of Professed Christians, in the Higher and Middle Classes in This Country, Contrasted with Real Christianity
By William Wilberforce
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I've been trying to daily devote 10 minutes before bed to reading "Real Christianity" by William Wilberforce. 

I don't really have the time to get into the specifics, but I'm amazed at how relevant a book from 1797 can be to a Ferris State student 210 years later.  I'm currently reading Wiberforce's call for Christians to fully embrace the teachings of Christianity, as opposed to selective obedience. (Not that anyone really has a problem with that anymore, but I thought it was interesting to imagine).

This book has really impressed me!

 It seems that countless generations have tried repeatedly to reinvent the wheel when wisdom which has lasted centuries is available to them. I'd challenge anyone (bored enough to be reading my blog) to sign off the computer and pick up a classic work!



Saturday, March 24, 2007

Currently Listening
OK Computer
By Radiohead
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I thought these two quotes were worth passing on:

"Many people die with their music still in them. Why is this so? Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live. Before they know it, time runs out."                    -Oliver Wendell Holmes

"We are always getting ready to live but never living."     -Ralph Waldo Emerson

I can definitely relate to people who have a hard time living a day at a time. (ie,  "I just wish it were the weekend", "I can't wait for the summer", and "I want to just be out of school and pay off these loans.")   I'm constantly catching myself saying stuff like this, but life always begins today!

I do this a lot with personal development too... "When I get a chance, I'll try to...", hoping someday I'll be making better decisions, gaining character traits, or working towards a goal.  With a lot of things, if I don't start today, I'll never start!


Monday, March 19, 2007

Currently Listening
Angels Aweigh
By Dick Siegel
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Random Thoughts from Planet Xanga

Dear Xanga,

It's been a while since I've written you. I'm hoping that you would rescue me from a horrible beast called
MCO which has been trying to eat me since August '06! Although my fear of this savage education is great, the quest for academic survival hasn't been all bad.  I've developed a heck of a puritan work ethic from carrying my textbooks to the library. As the dad from Calvin and Hobbes) would say, "It builds character."   haha.

***

Although it's been awhile since this event took place, I have to brag a little about a recent event over spring break. Right before spring break, I developed a pretty nasty finger infection that resulted in a gigantic abscess that was ridiculously painful.  When I realized that I'd have to wait a full day for a Dr. to examine my finger, make an incision and prescribe and antibiotic,  I decided that it would be easier to just sterilize a needle and do the dirty work myself.  So I did.  The greatest thing about doing it at home was that I was able to throw the drained pus on a slide and check out all the macrophages under the microscope!  Whohoo, I'm a geek...

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I'm grinning today ear-to-ear (no, don't be concerned. I'm exaggerating.) because I went to a folk concert (Daisy May and Dick Siegel, specifically) last night.  I don't know what it is about folk music that makes me smile but I really get a kick out of it.  I really need to try to cook up a few tunes on the guitar.

***

Although the beast has eaten more of my philosophical side than I wish it did, I was thinking the other day about a random list I've thrown together.  It's the list of characteristics that I admire in other people.  It's the list of qualities that make me grin. I really like looking at this list... somehow, when I look at this list and think about all whom I admire, I can't but smile.  It's as if there's hope for the world.

Unfortunately, I can probably only use 15-20% of these admirable qualities in describing myself.  (In some ways, this probably isn't a bad thing.  It'd be a joke to pick 2 stray qualities that I think I have and then label myself a hero.) 

After glancing over my list yesterday, it occurred to me that my list forms a circumference around everything that I know to be "moral" and "good."  They seem to have many similarities with the character of God.  Perhaps I have an innate admiration (not necessarily attraction) for that which is moral/godly? Who knows. 

I couldn't help but think that maybe these thoughts would make it easier to "do the right thing."  It seems that "tough choices" might be easier if I took the time to realize that often my choices are between:
                     1) What I don't really respect (although enticing)             and
                     2) What I admire



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